Det är redan juli och nu börjar det hända saker. På riktigt. Jag är redo för det som kommer och jag längtar med en pirrig mage. 

I could feel the anxiety rush over me. My body was trembling and my stomach clenched. I thought about the future. I knew I wanted my dreams to come true, but this was too fast. My mind was trying to calm my body down while my body tried to make me aware of what was coming.

Would I be able to do this? I had to. If I could not I would miss the chance of a lifetime. I  tried to calm down, but I could not get rid of that nagging sensation I was all too familiar with. That voice that was telling me to stay home had finally won the battle of my body.

I knew nothing. I was not in control and I did not like it. I did not even know if I could control my own future. But I knew that my body was wrong and my mind was right. I would conquer and I would win.