Why can't I stop torturing myself? It's soon been four months FOUR! That's like a third of a year I don't see it, why do I do this? I loved her, she loved me too LoveD (The D means that she doesn't love me anymore) She's not mine anymore, and that really rips my heart right out of my chest   No, I won't do this anymore I will leave the "Linnea-part" of me behind, and I will start over as a new human beeing From this time and forward, my name will be Alexandra, and if you want, Alex I know a lot of people won't call me Alex or Alexandra, they will keep calling me Linnea But I don't care anymore   And sorry, Evve, if you read this, but I've actually been thinking about changing my name to Alexandra for a long time